let it be enough

i have nothing left
days
turned into weeks
now months
fifteen years and still
nothing
i have nothing left
nothing but this
“God, please, be near”
thats all i have
right now

and oh, let it be enough

when laughter
rings out
loud from rooftops
deep from the souls
of the wounded
when smiles
stretch
and bend
faces unaccustomed
with tears of delight

when shouts of joy
echo
through hallways
hallways often visited
by despair
hallways familiar
with crouching figures
trying to make sense
of all the hurt
when those hallways
amplify
shouts of joy

when happiness
might as well be the wind
refreshing
your tired skin
a cold drink of water
on days that seem to
burn
when you feel
as though you were
a feather
that could float right into the
clear blue sky

when light
breaks through
darkness
sneaking through
small cracks
in walls
you so carefully
built
when the candle is lit
and flames dance
darkness flees
trembles

when sadness
fills your lungs with
poison
never giving a reason
for this deep
betrayal
when there are
no answers
and there are no
quick fixes
there is only sadness
that cannot be explained
and will not
explain
only pumping you with more
venom

when tears
fall
from the fiercest clouds
in your eyes
threatening to drown you
alone
when the flood is
unstoppable
unmovable
and cannot be convinced to
ease up already
surely
surely you could drown here

when depression
wraps you with long
dangerous tentacles
suffocating your heart
seemingly just for
the hell of it
when this blanket has you
trapped
offering no way out
wrapping tighter and
tighter
regardless of how hard you
fight

when darkness
pours over you like
waves
beating and
bashing
constantly wearing down all the
life that is left in your
soul
when there seems to be
no glimmer of
hope
not a chance for rescue

when questions come
reconciliation between
good and bad
seems far fetched
when laughter and depression
should never
coexist
when tears and shouts of joy
cannot possibly
come from the same heart
when darkness and light
are present
in the same room

it is in all of these moments
that all i have left is

“God, be near”

and oh, please, let that be enough

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